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In third grade I started hearing voices, seeing people chasing me, feeling paranoid, confused, and delusional. I can’t remember before third grade, but it is likely that I have had schizoaffective disorder all my life. I was afraid to tell anyone about my issues because I was afraid that the voices would kill me. There were two main voices: the blue and the red. They sometimes just mimicked me, or made me feel guilty about being bad, but they were the most dangerous when they commanded me to kill other people or myself. I found refuge from the voices by cutting myself to see the blood. This is a habit that has been almost impossible for me to stop. In the seventh grade I threatened my friends and teachers by writing anonymous threat notes. I eventually got caught and I was sent to a psychiatrist by the school. This was my first trip to a psychiatrist and I was eleven years old. I hated it. I cursed at her and wouldn’t cooperate. I never went back. When I was twelve my family moved to Seattle, Washington. I thought I would be able to start over with my life and escape all my pain. Unfortunately, the voices and fears followed me. I was in eighth grade and I started hanging with a bad crowd. I used drugs and had sex. The voices were telling me I was a bad person, so I acted like a bad person. I almost got kicked out of school. I hit rock bottom on December 5, 1997. I attempted suicide. No one had any idea how much pain I was in and this really surprised them. My parents went into shock. My school counselor who had been helping had no idea that I was so severely ill. I told the doctors about the voices and the visions, but I couldn’t admit to being paranoid because I was so sure that my delusions were real. The doctors tried to help me, but nothing helped. I was in the hospital for most of my senior year of high school. Finally I turned eighteen and I was sent to the adult medical center instead of the children’s hospital and I was told that I would never be able to graduate college or live on my own. This did not stop me though, it inspired me. My family found a hospital for me in Massachusetts and I moved to Boston into an Adolescent Residential Treatment Center where I got to see a specialist in child psychotic disorders. She found a medicine that my doctors in Seattle had not thought of trying and it was like a miracle drug. Soon I was out of the hospital and I was back in school, part-time at Brandeis University. My whole family moved to Weston, MA and my little brother started high school there. My older brother went to college in Western MA. Although I was happy to be back in school, I was having a lot of side effects from the medications and I had a hard time concentrating. Brandeis did not have a lot of experience dealing with people with mental illness, or at least I don’t think they did because I felt very alone there. At Brandeis I was majoring in creative writing. After two years I transferred to Simmons College and I am a nursing major. I can’t wait to get my R.N. and help patients. My family is moving into Boston soon. My life is going great. I have had a lot of physical setbacks—heart problems, diabetes, seizures, hypothyroid, congenital adrenal hyperoplasia, stomach issues, and most recently gallstones. Still, my schizoaffective disorder has been the hardest thing to manage. I hope this book will help some families that are dealing with mental illness. It shows that kids can make it through psychosis. It also helps families understand what psychosis is really like.

When Song Lee--the nicest person in Room 2B--starts getting nasty notes, everyone is shocked. Then Song Lee comes up with a creative way to teach the note sender a lesson he or she won't soon forget.

Joanna McClure's poems reveal the story of a central woman writer of the San Francisco Beat generation counterculture. Married to Beat poet Michael McClure soon after she arrived in San Francisco in 1954, Joanna McClure became a significant figure in the Beat poetry scene. Growing up on a ranch in the Arizona desert, Joanna developed early on a deep sensitivity to the beauty of nature. Her move to San Francisco as a young woman in 1951 launched a lifelong love affair with that city and the poetry it engendered. Thriving on the energy of the Beat movement, the young poet found herself inside a circle of famous poets and great writers in American poetry and American literature, including San Francisco Renaissance poet Robert Duncan and his lover, artist Jess Collins, as well as the Beats Allen Ginsberg, Jack Kerouac, Neal Cassady, and Gary Snyder. She heard Ginsberg's first public reading of "Howl" at the Six Gallery in 1955, and the home she shared with Michael became a gathering place for beatniks. Meanwhile, Joanna was developing own body of poetic work, allowing her clear inner voice to guide her. Her poems ardently claim the freedoms her generation struggled to achieve, yet they often do so in a playful and generous voice, reveling in the beauty of the natural world and everyday moments and elegantly celebrating sensuality and intimate love. In the late 1950s she began publishing her work in literary journals and chapbooks, and her first book of poems, Wolf Eyes, was published in 1974. Like many of her female Beat poet contemporaries, and American women writers throughout the 20th century, Joanna McClure wrote prolifically yet quietly year after year, even as her life shifted focus to a career in early childhood development and she and Michael divorced. "Poetry is where I keep company with myself," she declares. Now for the first time the full range of McClure's voice is accessible in one volume, spanning the poet's entire writing life.

The Essentials of Aromatherapy Essential Oils teaches you how to use essential oils to improve your physical, mental and emotional well being.The author's experience as a medical doctor and clinical aromatherapy practitioner have enabled her to write a highly informative guide for those who want to utilize the healing benefits of these natural aromatherapy oils.You will discover:* The safety information and therapeutic uses of 18 essential oils* How to blend essential oils* The characteristics and uses of 14 carrier oils* How to Dilute Essential Oils with Carrier Oils* How to Use Essential Oils* Cautionary Measures when using Essential Oils * Numerous Essential Oil Recipes for bath products as well as skin care and hair care productsThe Essentials of Aromatherapy Essential Oils will leave you with a clear understanding of how you can safely use aromatherapy essential oils to heal yourself naturally.

Debating Hate Crime examines the language used by parliamentarians, senators, and committee witnesses to debate Canada’s hate laws. Drawing on discourse analysis, semiotics, and critical psychoanalysis, Allyson Lunny explores how the tropes, metaphors, and other linguistic signifiers used in these debates expose the particular concerns, trepidations, and anxieties of Canadian lawmakers and the expert witnesses called before their committees. Lunny reveals the meaning and social signification of the endorsement of, and resistance to, hate law. The result is a rich historical account of some of Canada’s most passionate public debates on victimization, rightful citizenship, social threat, and moral erosion.

Hate crimes can take many forms. Assaulting someone, vandalizing their property, or simply making them feel threatened are all considered hate crimes when they are motivated by animosity for a particular group. Readers learn that these offenses often take place because the perpetrator has a fundamental misunderstanding or fear of the people in that targeted group. Informative charts and discussion questions for each chapter encourage readers to think critically about the way people’s biases can dictate their behavior in ways that harm others.

This book focuses on the concept of “brand hate” and consumer negativity in today’s digital markets. It explores the emotional detachment consumers generate against valued brands and how negative experiences affect their and other consumers' loyalty. It is almost impossible not to run into hateful language about companies and their brands in today’s digital consumption spaces. Consumer hostility and hate is not hidden and silent anymore but is now openly shared on many online anti-brand websites, consumer social networking sites, and complaint and review boards. The book defines consumer brand hate and discusses its dimensions, antecedents, and consequences as well as the semiotics and legality of such brand hate activities based on current brand dilution arguments. It describes the situations which lead to anti-branding and how consumers choose to express their dissatisfaction with a company on individual and social levels. This newly updated edition discusses recent research findings from brand hate literature with new cases and extended managerial analysis. Thus, the book provides strategic perspectives on how to handle such situations to achieve better functioning markets for scholars and practitioners in marketing, psychology, and consumer behavior.

A powerful, uncompromising explanation of how subtle sources of hatred contained throughout our media and culture have resulted in a tolerance for hate crimes in America. • Provides readers with an understanding of how deeply embedded in daily cultural practices the roots of hatred are in American culture • Spotlights the role of cultural institutions such as the media, political rhetoric, and the entertainment industry in fostering an atmosphere of hate • Portrays hate crime as unexceptional in American culture rather than isolated acts of deviant individuals • Examines media depictions of those considered "Other" throughout American history, including enemies during war, immigrants, different racial and religious groups, and those whose sexual identities have been deemed "Other"

When I got to the cemetery it was still dark. I found my way to my mothers grave. I told her my whole heart. I gave her a report about all her children . we are blame for everything that is broke or missing . I have to fight for them all the time. Pounene i am tired, I have no more to give, this is too much for me. I began to cry. I was so sure she would get up out of that grave, but she never did. the sun was coming up. death must be a powerful thing , when it wont let you come and see about your child.

Identifies the subtle means by which girls behave aggressively toward one another and examines specific behaviors while explaining the importance of enabling girls to express anger and resolve conflicts.

“Dreams do come true. They just never happen the way we expect.” Linda González has finally gotten what she came to Los Angeles for: Alec Brock’s heart. But being the girlfriend of an international pop star isn’t always easy. Especially when she’s being stalked...by someone other than his fans. The only thing Linda knows about the impostor is that he played with her heart for over a year, and now he’s threatening to hurt her. Always one step ahead of the police, he seems to be closer than she expected. And without knowing what he looks like, Linda can trust no one. Not even Alec. When Linda uncovers a shocking secret Alec has been keeping from her, she realizes everybody lies. And if she wants to get to the bottom of this mess, she’d better start listening to her own heart instead of other opinions. REVIEW “I was dying for all the answers and No More Lies, Alec Brock did not disappoint! I loved every single twist and turn! This series has such a great cast of characters!” — Elle Blair, MG and YA Fiction Author “This book was so good it made me cry! I fell in love with the characters all over again, felt their pain and their joy, their anxiety and their love! All the pieces in the story beautifully connected together in the end, revealing who Impostor Alec is, and OMG, my heart skipped a beat!” — Elira Barnes, YA Fiction Author “This book was insane! I don’t have words. I experienced every emotion you can think of. I was on an emotional high, a rollercoaster from start to finish. Only Larissa can make you fall in love with the villain. Absolutely speechless, that’s what I am.” — Jean-Maré Gagliardi, Paranormal Romance Author

Silence is not simply the absence of noise. It is within us, in the inner citadel that great writers, thinkers, scholars and people of faith have cultivated over the centuries. It characterizes our most intimate and sacred spaces, from private bedrooms to grand cathedrals – those vast reservoirs of silence. Philosophers and novelists have long sought solitude and inspiration in mountains and forests. Yet despite the centrality of silence to some of our most intense experiences, the transformations of the twentieth century have gradually diminished its value. Today, raucous urban spaces and a continual bombardment from different media pressure us into constant activity. We are losing a sense of our inner selves, a process that is changing the very nature of the individual. This book rediscovers the wonder of silence and, with this, a richer experience of life. With his predilection for the elusive, Corbin calls us to listen to another history.

Tom Mason, Chicago area high school teacher, has been teaching at Grover Cleveland High School for a while - long enough to loathe the faculty meetings and long enough to know that as bad as they are, they aren't fatal. Usually. Having had all he can take of the endless bickering, picking and factional disputes, he sneaks out of the meeting for a short break only to find the meeting over when he returns, the usual suspects having departed to the four winds. Having decided that this was a sign of his good fortune, he decides to see if the stockroom actually has the supplies he needs. What he finds there however is a trysting couple in the dark (one married, the other not) and, once the light is turned on, a dead body in the corner. The body is that of one of his colleagues who stormed out of the faculty meeting earlier, a blackboard eraser stuffed into her lifeless mouth. Having disappeared from the meeting at roughly the same time, Tom finds himself in the unwelcome position of prime suspect and with the help of his husband, former baseball player Scott Carpenter, he'll have to figure out who really killed the other teacher before the crime is pinned on him.

In Making a Difference, students of color relate their first-hand experiences with educational systems and campus living conditions. Their narratives provide an insider perspective useful to anyone working on diversity issues who is trying to improve institutional culture and policy. The contextualizing essays following the student narratives are written by academics and student affairs professionals who draw links between issues of institutional access, recruitment and retention of students and faculty of color, curriculum changes, teaching strategies—especially for teaching whiteness and racial identity formation, campus climate, and the relation between an individual institution's history of dealing with race to developments in public policy.

It is September 1951 and stunned Betty Wheatley is suffering from PVS (postvirginity syndrome). She just knows she'll be unable to say no to the next amorous advance. She believes that all men can read her weakness—it's written all over her face. She's a harlot at the tender age of nineteen. And it's all Cameron's fault—Cameron with the bedroom eyes. A reluctant Betty, banished to rural schoolism in the isolated mountain town of Narrows, British Columbia (pop. 41), takes hesitant command of the Green School with its knotholed outhouse and traitorous Quebec heater—her first taste of work, her first sniff of responsibility. Betty's pupils, fifteen barn-scented empty heads, test her mettle; Betty repeatedly fails to get the upper hand. She is constantly reminded that she is pedagogically inept—a certified turkey. She longs to run off—anywhere—after every disaster and exposé. But bits of skewed logic help her survive day-by-day; after all, a misanthropic roommate, a judgmental landlady, and a lascivious minister can't be any worse to cope with than her own ill-matched parents. While she skirts around amorous advances from both sexes and spiteful hate letters calling her a she-devil, Cameron, her boyfriend attending university hundreds of miles away, proves to be unfaithful—the two-timing bastard! Can she adapt to a lonely spinster life in the backwoods, or should she chuck the whole endeavor and run off to seek fame and fortune in Hollywood? Fresh missteps and unexpected champions keep Betty flip-flopping and forming cockeyed deductions about everything and everyone until late springtime breezes dramatically challenge the village's offbeat game of happenstance.

A collection of the books four through six of the Magical Mayhem series. To Prevent Smart Choices Kendra has her first assignment: to stop a bully at a school for magical girls. But she underestimates the language barrier, she overestimates her own competence at villainy, and she's not used to fighting without magic. So attacking an entire school of magical girls may not be the wisest thing she's ever done. Especially since a villainous fashion designer is watching. To Prevent Warm Welcomes If Rhea's sister is a traitor, she knows what she has to do. She heads to the lair ready to do what's necessary . . . and clueless Tiffany lets her in. Chronos is not delighted. One of Kendra's friends finally gets what she's wanted for a long time. But will it be a dream come true — or will it be a nightmare? To Prevent Cute Mascots There's a magical girl with an evil mascot. Naturally, Kendra has to stop this and beat up the cute, conniving little fuzzball. This might work better if she isn't forced to take Tiffany with her. Florence finally figures out what she wants to do from now on. And the answer she comes to might change everything.